Reading – Tiny Darts

TINY DARTS

Middle school has been rough for me. It’s not the homework or tests that stress me out, it’s the people and the way they treat me. It feels like I’m getting hit with mean comments from every side. It’s not really like I’m being bullied by anyone in particular, but it sort of feels the same because so many people pick at me every day.

They don’t always seem like they’re trying to be mean, but it still stings when they make fun of what I’m wearing, or my weight, or my grades… or whatever else. They tease me about my hairstyle or how I’m not that popular with the boys. It’s like they get a kick out of pointing out every little thing they think is wrong with me. These digs come at me in the hallways, at lunch, and even in class. Like this one time, someone laughed and said, “Whoa, nice outfit!” And everyone around just laughed along. It was awful. 

I try to laugh it off, acting like it doesn’t bug me. But deep down, it really hurts. It’s like a bunch of tiny darts that keep hitting me, making me feel smaller every day. I don’t tell my parents or teachers because I’m scared it’ll just make things worse. They might try to help, but then I’d be the snitch, and it would just make things worse. And if I tell the other kids to stop, they’d just laugh more and say I’m being a baby.

This non-stop teasing makes me not want to go to school. I’ve missed a lot of school and it’s hurting my grades, but it’s hard to get up in the morning. I just want to stay hidden under my blanket. Sometimes I wish I could just disappear, just so I wouldn’t have to deal with the laughs and the whispers. It’s like I’m stuck pretending everything’s okay, while inside, I feel like I’m breaking. It’s hard to pay attention in class when my head’s full of all this negative stuff.

I know I should probably talk to someone about how I’m feeling, but I’m scared. I’m scared of being judged or seen as weak. So, I keep all this stuff to myself, hoping things will get better someday. But for now, I just keep smiling and laughing along with their jokes, while inside, I’m wondering if this teasing will ever stop.